nameless,lifeless,numb

feelin sian abt everything again...

lost in the great big world
where everything is so clear yet so blurred
why do pple live?
to do the things they want?
to understand the world?
to be someone rich and famous?
haf a carefree yet fullfillin life?

is it so impt to haf a aim in life?
yet without dreams to achieve then it will be like a walkin dead
everybody be somebody
its gd to haf an individuality but overdoing is uncalled for

y is everybody competing in everything?
so wat if u win..so wat if u lose...
u win some u lose some...
it takes more guts to admit the loss
aint not sour grapes but fame and glory isnt dat impt

u may lose yet u may gain something for it

the price of winning may be too high a price to pay

wats love? the eternal question
love between family,love between friends,or the lovey dovey kind
which holds the highest value?
cant decide..wun decide
simple to me,whoever needs my attention i will give to whoever it is
no priorities stated..it depends totally on situations
but aint no expert on lovey dovey kind though
may talk like i know...but cos i am always lookin frm the outside
hasn't been in one to know

where is the love?

money makes the world go round?
will u kill for a million?
will u backstab a friend for a billion?

will u betray ur family for a trillion?
to many money makes alot of diff...
big cars fat wallet branded from head to toe
does dat make u a good guy?
the world is too materialistic
thus all guys think u haf a flashy car u will get the babes..
sadly its true
cos it melts their hearts when someone 'bothers' to come pick them up
think abt the guys who haf to eat bread if they were to come in cabs
if i were to throw a million at a guy and ask him to be my dog and do my biddin for a day
he probably would..cos money is the key to everything ok most things...

it hits upon me pple normally judge others by their own standards
in order to feel gd abt themselves
u in the in crowd, some will call u a wannabe
u are an outcast pple shun u so as not to be associated
everyone is special in their own way
i jus like being myself... shun me or join me
i dun give a damn...
thus i hang out with pple who are more easy going,straight-forward pple

yes i do judge pple too thus i aint perfect too...

but i choose to see ur true personality before i give the final judgement

jus a nobody in dis vast universe
looking for a sense of belonging
someone to hold dear
fullfillin a yet to be defined dream
floating around aimlessly
in search of something i might never know i am looking
wat am i? who am i? wat in a name?
wats my purpose?
WAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?
did almost everything
u name it i most probably tried it when i want to
other than drugs
nothing holds much meaning and reason anymore...

pple dun read too much into wat i wrote...
i really dunno wat was i thinkin abt...
too messy to make any sense even to me...
ITS NOT A SUICIDAL THING...